I went to the market and it was there: the infinite choices. Sodas, countless brands of bread, chocolates, ready-to-go desserts, numerous labels of mineral water. All so accessible, then why would anyone treasure a moment when they are finally having that delicious ice cream if there is ice cream everywhere?

In a universe where you can do whatever you want, choosing is the hardest thing for us. And I am doing that a lot. I go to bed and keep looking around, seeing all the books I want to read, next to all the artwork I am currently working on, and the ones I haven’t started yet.

I want to read Dracula for the hundredth time and I want to create zines about each chapter. I want to create new digital zines, I want to study more, and do physical exercise – no wonder I can’t sleep, look at the size of my to-do list.

My garden needs maintenance, the bathroom corridor is full of crap I can’t get rid of. It’s easy to leave things as they are  when you have so much to do. But why do I have so much to do? I want to learn how to play the piano, and today I was this close to buying an electric keyboard to start my practice.

Piano is my favourite instrument, but what activity would I drop to study music? We want to start new projects without dropping any of the previous tasks that are already part of our lives – time doesn’t stretch just because we want it to. And still we act as if it does.

Anne Rios

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